We are faced with adversity everyday, night, and sometimes it seems as if we will never get to a place that will be calm and peaceful.
In my battles, inside, I have been holding my own, working out each one as it comes up. By cleaning out the closet, I release more ghosts, and then I have to week through those as well. I am winning, I am accomplishing, I am conquering this battle.
I has not been easy, but it never has been too hard for me, even in my darkest moments, I have been able to overcome it. It just doesn't happen overnite. Because of these battles, I have grown and matured to be whom I am today, and will continue to grow. I like it.
I can love with my heart, I have let walls down, I have opened my heart to love. Its exciting for me. It has made me so much more compassionate towards the pains of other people, even if its not something that I would be upset over, I realize now, because of my growing pains, that each of us takes a situation and reacts to it differently. And because of that, the degree that it affects us is so different because of our makeup of our personality, our spiritual being, our emotional level, our mental stability, and even our physical bodies
I understand now that just because I see raincloud blue, doesn't mean the next person does, they probably see grey, or purple. So, I see now that my worries might be nothing to someone over the fence, but their worries might be something that I can handle just fine.
I can only hope and pray that this continuous journey will help me to encourage others on their journeys, to never give up, to continue on, to fight for themselves.
Today, I am enjoying things that I always wanted to enjoy, and I listen so much better. I have learned to forgive, which is always ongoing. I don't want to be stuck in a place that has a steel gripped clutch on my heart and spirit. I don't want to ever feel numb again. I want to live and feel every breath, every breeze, see the butterflies and ladybugs, smell pies baking, smell fresh upturned dirt.
My biggest ally in this, God, has always been there for me, I just didn't always open up to Him, but doing so has made it possible.
Live, Love, Laugh and always remember you are loved.
